Sunday, December 17, 2006
We dance, how we dance, dangerously close. Calm excitement, quiet tension. Wavering closer and farther again, between us, I look down at the space; there isn't much. I must admit I want to get closer, but fear stops me- or is it I'm frozen with a hot chill all over? You're so warm, and I know I am too. I look at your face and you're smiling- I smile, too. We sing the lyrics because we both know the song. We laugh together, but we can't hear it because the music's too loud. But somehow it seems all quiet. As if it's only us, but of course the room is filled with people! Your hair, long and a little wet. I giggle because you're silly, and you laugh at the way I like to dance. I tell you you were too close earlier, and you back up, but I tell you it's ok now, and I pull you closer..
Monday, December 11, 2006
There are times when our minds become too full. Our to-do lists, worries, plans, and dreams may be so crowded together in our heads that we don't have room to think. We may believe that we are somehow taking care of our desires and concerns by keeping them at the forefront of our minds. In maintaining our mental hold on every detail, however, we may actually delay the realization of our dreams and the resolution of our worries because we won't let them go. We try to solve and take care of everything all at once! I'm tired.. I have to learn to let go..Letting go doesn't mean that I've given up or have been defeated. I'm just simply placing them in the hands of the universe. The universe can take care of them..We must give ourselves permission to not concern ourselves with that problem (whatever it is concerning you) any longer and trust that the universe is taking care of it. We would be giving "our burden" to a higher power.
I'm missing out on a lot because my mind is always occupied with ALOT! Sometimes trivial issues take up alot of space! Letting go would free my mind so I can be fully present in each moment.I'm going to start using that technique.. It must be amazing how quickly problems go away and dreams come true when we finally let go and allow a higher power to help us. Will I ever rest?
I'm not feeling myself.. I don't like the way things are going.. and frankly, I don't give a damn! lol.. Well, no not quite.. I do give a damn! o_O I just don't know what to do! Nothing is going my way! I keep blaming it on alot of things! DX
AGH! So in order to release some stress, I decided to watch Mai Hime.
So like, I finally decided to watch Mai hime from the BEGINNING. Lol. Since the first time I've watched it, I skipped from episode 8 or something and moved on towards the last 6 episode. Yeah. Lol. XDD I mean it had a very promising premise at the beginning, but by somewhere in the 8th or something episode, it just seemed like they were just making an excuse to fight a monster, or to force a plot point. seemed as though they were running dry on ideas on how to make the plot progress. But hey, maybe its just me after all.
Well anyway, now that I've seen the whole series, I was so delighted. EEEEE~ Even more when I saw Natsuki and Shizuru again. X33; Those are just so utterly cute together.
I heard the manga is really good and quite different from the anime?! w00t. Could anyone direct me to where I could get them? :3
Thursday, December 7, 2006
TWO MORE DAYS (or TOO MORE DAYS, depending on your skill of pronunciation)
We've more or less finished everything, with the exception of little things that we've got to get for the actual day. And of course, preparing for the presentation. Without fail, every night before I go to bed, the thought of it wriggles its way into my head, festering for about as long as the level-headed side of me takes to convince it to leave it till the next day.
Yes, I am quite nervous about it. But I guess all it takes is just practice. Anyway, everything else seems to be in order. So much so that I am convinced there is something we've somehow forgotten. One that we will discover minutes before we are to present our ideas to a roomful of industry people and fellow students; that will create a jolting panic, causing the well-rehearsed lines in my head to be reduced to a jumbled heap.
Get this paranoia chip out of my head, please.
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
I've discovered something important. Although I don't have time to talk to my friends while I'm writing a paper, but I do have the time to level up in o2jam. I was talking to a bunch of people online last night, when I was supposed to be writing my paper on the ecological validity of infant cognition. About four hours from when I knew I would pass out (falling asleep in class is the opposite of fun: you always wake up to find someone staring at you raptly o_O) I realized that I'd been stalling around for two hours.
I said goodbye to everyone and signed off. After all, I didn't have time to be wasting. Well, it turns out that I did. Two hours after some vigorous writing and deep thoughts on how I could relate infant social cognition and violent conflict, I was distressed. After days of writing, I had reached the saturation point where I wasn't even really reading the paper anymore, just staring blankly at the words as my eyes ran over them.
I went to that most awful of sites, addictinggames.com, and visited one of my first loves, garfield.com.
And now my much neglected favorite thing, a list. I don't have time to...
...study properly for my upcoming test, but I have time to write a blog entry.
...pay attention to Chelsea while she's making my article better, but I have time to go get ice cream.
...sleep as much as I want, but I have time to watch the entire first season of
Kaleido Star in a week.
Sheesh..
I swear I HATE absolutely HATE that freaken NAVBAR! I can't get rid of it. D: And I'm so late for my class. OMG. D: Seriously I gotta go, i just had so much fun with these css stuff that I couldn't bring myself off this chair and out of this netcafe. lol <3
I'm not really intending to spread this url around as I think this blog would be more personal than my previous one. But of course those who want to link me can still do so.. XD
